The author discusses the deep-seated desire to write that has been with them their whole life, allowing them to express their thoughts more clearly than through speech due to their childhood experiences. Writing provided stability and immutability that social interactions did not. They began writing early, connecting with the pleasure of making up stories and poems that embodied but also transcended their own existence. The author explores the transformative power of writing, likening it to a search for the self through free association akin to psychoanalysis. The process is euphoric in writing and more introspective in analysis, leading to different outcomes in the search for identity and understanding.
https://www.newyorker.com/culture/the-weekend-essay/writing-as-transformation-louise-gluck